Ugh.
Lately things have been super duper hard. I've gained a substantial amount of weight- almost reached my halfway point to my ultimate recovery goal. While I should be happy about my progress- I have been feeling so horrible about myself. I feel fat, ugly, unattractive, gross. I can feel the fat on my stomach, legs, and arms that has reappeared and Ed keeps telling me how disgusting I am. The past couple days have been I guess you could say "not-so-great" (behaviour-wise) but today I'm really trying my hardest to get back on track. I went on a mini vacation and although I did okay during the time away from home, ever since I got back things have been so difficult since I weighed myself (note to self: big mistake).
So. To get back on track, I'm revisiting the self-talk which I seem to have forgotten lately- I keep telling myself that my weight gain is GOOD. It is healthy. I am nourishing my body and this recovery process is what I need to do in order to have my life back.
Stay strong, stay YOU
Colette xo
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